Inspiration



Latley, I've been feeling a little less than inspired to do anything. Workout, no way. I may be stuffing hundreds of candy-calories in my face every day, but you'd be hard pressed to find me in a gym. My running shoes are just sitting there, looking lonesome. And kinda chewed up, from when my dog got a hold of one.



Homework, that's just not happening. Yeah, I'm falling pretty far behind on my classes.. but for the life of me I can't get into it. I feel like I'm wasting my life at this stupid JC anyway.

Heck, it took all the effort in me to start writing this blog post. And it has taken me two hours just to figure out what to write about. Which turns out to be my lack of inspiration.

So where am I going with this? I'd like to know what gets you inspired.

For me, there are a lot of things. I love the pretty things in life. Flowers are my absolute favorite, but living in the desert, you may understand how those are hard to come by. To get inspired to do my homework- I clean my room. I need clean sheets, a vacuumed carpet, no clothes on the floor. But how in the world do I get inspired to clean my room? It's this vicious cycle, I tell you.
Lately, the only things I've been inspired to do are eat candy and watch TV.

I do know what my problem is. I do. The past few weeks have been full of the ol' "Anything that can go wrong, will." With the car crash, the phone, the hand, my dad, fights and a paycheck gone two days after I got it.. things are kinda overwhelming me. I'm tempted to fall into my rut and never come out. My problem is that I don't WANT to be inspired right now. I want to feel sorry for myself and wallow. Who wants to do homework when they're sad? Who wants to do anything when they're sad? Not me. Not I. No way, no how.

So here I am, wallowing. Writing this 'feel bad' blog post, maybe in an attempt to get pity, but mostly in an attempt to get inspired again. I want to hear what makes you happy. So shoot :)

2 comments:

Stephanie Faris said...

I've never heard that Audrey Hepburn quote before. That's awesome!

Yes, sometimes it seems like the more I have to do, the less I get done. It's like you freeze, in essence, not sure which direction to take.

The Caffeinated Librarian said...

I like that quote too. Never heard it before.

I don't know, I get motivated one minute, and feel like doing nothing the next. I always have a list of things I want to get done, but I'm lucky if I get to half of it.