Somewhere Between A..

Lately, I've been somewhere between a cry and a laugh.


But you know what? I've mostly been near that laugh. I mean.. I have definitely been frustrated as of late. Some things haven't been coming easy to me- such as patience, or willpower.. or strength. But for some reason, I have gained a happiness that I can't describe. I feel like I can be happy by myself, without depending on anyone else to make me so. Have you ever felt like that? It's neat. It's like something inside me got sick and tired of being sad, of depending on other people. So it took over my emotions and said "eff sadness".. and here I am. Happy. Like someone informed me that no matter what happens, I'll be ok.



Maybe it's because I've been reading my scriptures regularly. I've been getting my personal thoughts out on my journal, instead of keeping them bottled inside. I've been working out, and making an effort to stay busy. I got Netflix, so in the moments I'm bored I can watch something entertaining. I've been making fun drives just for the heck of it, and you know what? I'm about to have two whole months off of work and school. Who knows what kind of trouble I can get into in that time! Who says change is a bad thing? Not this girl ;)

6 comments:

kelzone said...

i'm so so so so happy for you! i definitely went through a phase where i depended on others for happiness. isn't feeling content so liberating?

Rasha said...

Glad you're smiling more.

Slamdunk said...

Two months will be fantastic. Enjoy the spontaneous days.

Sam said...

2 months away from stress of school and work will be a blast! I'm excited for you.

Vanessa said...

Sounds like a good attitude to have! I reeeaaallly want to get Netflix but I'm not sure I have enough time to make it worth it. One day!

Nicole said...

So happy your happy! I worry about you sometimes!! All those things are awesome things to change anyone's attitude! Love Netflix =D