Friends..

Sometimes.. I'm really jealous of those girls that have such an easy time making friends. Even the ones that only have that one best friend who is there for them no matter what. Because that's something I've never had, and something I want.

Any of the 'real life' friends I've made have never been any good for me. They've been the kind of friend that adore you, until someone better comes along. And someone better always comes along in my case..

Since Kindergarten, this has been happening. I'm not even joking. Brittany was my best friend, until Heather came along. With Mary, I was always second best to Vicky. Andrea really liked me until Darcy moved into town. Brianna was my best friend until she met Desi. Melissa was my best friend until Samantha came into the picture.

You see where I'm going with this?

I like to think I'm an okay person.. but with a track record like that, I can't help but wonder what's wrong with me.

Am I too silly?

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Too much of a tomboy..?

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Or am I just plain boring?

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(Nope..can't be that one..)

Whatever it is.. I want to know, so I can fix it. Right meow.


On another note.. it is now MARCH. My most favorite month ever. It always seems to be filled with so much joy. It starts getting warmer, things start getting their color back. It's the month of my birth, of so many of my friends birthdays, of boyfriend's birthday. Oh, and the one year as well.
Here's hoping this month is wonderful :-)

21 comments:

Amy said...

OH MY GOSH. I really do find something in common with you every single day. no joke! I think we seriously need to be friends in real life.

I've had trouble with friends ever since Kindergarten. I've lost so many friends to "cooler" girls. I've always had trouble making new friends, and when I finally did, they just seemed to drift farther and farther away from me every day. I do have two of the best friends in the world now though, and it's been that way since high school. So I guess things have gotten better. But it's still really hard to make new friends.

I don't know what it is. It's not like I'm really shy or boring or anything. So again, you and I have something in common!

Leah said...

You know what, this I have to say, those friends who deserted you when somebody better comes along are not worth it. Good thing they're out of your life.

Real friends are hard to find. But when they come along, they will stick with you no matter what.

Just be yourself, don't change anything. You want friends who will love you for who you are. Don't worry, they will come. xoxo

Sam said...

I have one best friend and just a few other "close" friends, then the rest are what I call "school friends". I'm not a girl who has my big group of girl friends that hang out every day. My best friend doesn't even live in the same city as I do right now while I'm at school. I honestly don't think I have time for more friends right now (that sounds horrible..).

Anyway, I'm sorry you're feeling down about this. How rude for your friends to replace you. That's not what friendship is all about.

Kelley said...

Oh my gosh, my feelings exactly! It's always been like that for me, too.

Kate said...

There is absolutely nothing wrong with you! And I've been there too. Oh so very much. The first time was in 4th grade when my best friend who I did everything with stopped talking to me one day and hung out with this new girl all the time from then on. She literally just stopped talking. It took me a month to get her to tell me what was wrong and then her answer was "I just didn't feel like being your friend anymore."

Anyway, my point is I've had more of the same too. I like to think I'm an ok girl and I KNOW you're a lovely one who I'm lucky to count as a friend. If I were in CA, I would hope we'd hang out all the time. Don't give up.

xoxo!

Kaitlin said...

Oh how I can relate to this. I've never had a steady best friend. Ever.

The closest one I had ever had stopped talking to me when I started dating Hubs. Like a year and a half later we met up and hung out and it seemed like things were going to go back to normal. Until I never heard from her again. Seriously! I called, texted and emailed a few times. Like when I got engaged, I wanted her to know. But I didn't get a single response.

A BEST friend is something I've strived for my entire life. And I'm honestly beginning to think that's never going to happen.

I really hope it works out for you though. You're such a great, fun girl. I don't understand why someone wouldn't want to be friends with you.

:)

Alexa Mae said...

you are amazing. and really kellie, i meet people every year who make me a better person. you are one. you have had alot of friends, you have been there for them, you love them and there is nothing wrong with you. when you find friends that true and blue, they won't leave. love you girl!

LibbyLayla1984 said...

Yeah I'm the same way kellie. I always say I'm a substitute person. I am sure your a great friend cos I can see through your blog that you a beautiful person and I am glad that your my blogger friend

Little Miss Paige said...

I think about this all the time. Like, why does everybody have a best friend but me? Sure, I have somebody who I call my "best friend" but I'm not her best friend. I'm her "best friend from school" which is lame.

I feel yo pain.

XOX,
Little Miss Paige

Al said...

this post brought a bit of a tear to my eye...

i feel your pain love.

i have always had trouble finding one stable friend that isnt going to run off when they find someone else. it hurts!

but at least from these comments it shows us all that it happens to many people, not just us!

xx

Taylor-Made Wife said...

I know its contridicting, but I have 5 "best" friends. They all mean something to me in a different way. Most of them have more than one best friend too. I don't put a higher value on any of them. Maybe don't focus too much on being that one person's best friend. I like having girlfriends and I think they are important. But I'll be honest (hopefully without being mushy). My husband quickly became the best friend I ever thought I could have. There are some things that only a girlfriend can do, but its okay to me that my girlfriends don't date back to kindergarden because I know that my husband is stuck being my best friend forever.

Kanwalful said...

Gave you an award on my blog. I'm one of your silent readers/followers =)

Vanessa said...

I had this problem with girl friends. This is why even when I was younger I've stuck with having best guy friends. I have so much less problems with them. There is nothing wrong with you and everything wrong with them if you ask me. 8)

Jenni said...

I am the same way dear....I hope to find a friend like that someday as well...but in the mean time i'm going to enjoy the moments I have. I imagine finding a girlfriend like that is similar to finding your husband. It comes along when you least expect it :)

stephie said...

There is nothing wrong with you. Ive felt that way a lot but ive come to realize my family is my best friend and the few that aren't don't live near me. I would love to be your bff! Trust me there is a best friend out there for you :)

Allison said...

I hear you- I'm SO sorry. There is absolutely nothing wrong with you... girls are mean.

Sarah said...

Allison is SOOOO right...girls ARE mean! You are great...don't worry it!

Kellie said...

Um.. I love you all. No joke. I wish I knew you all in real life. :-)

Marci Darling said...

For what its worth, I think you are absolutely fantastic and deserve the absolute best. Girls are just mean.

amanda leeann said...

i'm going to round this post out to 20 comments, first of all.

second of all, this is the story of my life. cassie, to caitlin, to hannah, to brittany...i no longer speak to any of them. & yeah, i have friends now...but they're not always the best. i'm the kind of person that will bend over backwards for you. i feel like they're there for me when it's convenient most of the time.

idk. i'm thankful for the friends i do have, but i'm not going to pretend they're perfect. i know i'm not either!

sometimes, i wonder what's wrong with me too..

-hugs- if i lived anywhere close to you, we would be real life friends. i'm sure of it =]

OceanDreams said...

You are such a sweet and amazing girl, you deserve a friend to love you for just who you are and nothing less. I think this sometimes happen to everyone, I have had this happen to me too. Keep hanging in there and just be you! :)