Hi

I'm off my game. A little less than happy. I just miss... people.

I probably should be happy. I don't have anything to be too terribly sad about. I started work again, which gives me something to occupy my brain. I have a cute monster puppy to play with. I'm home, and comfortable.

I just have this achey loneliness in my stomach. It's hard to shake.. because it feels like the only time it leaves me alone is when I'm talking to someone. But I'm not assertive enough to constantly be calling or texting one person or another. It makes me feel annoying. Pesky. Clingy. Do you see how this is a lose/lose situation for me?




Don't worry, I'm perfectly ok. I'll go play with the puppy and take a nap. Ignore the rest of the world.. for the rest of the day. That always puts me in a good mood. :)

Sadness

I'm Fine, I'm Fine!!

I'm not going to lie.. I really despise when people say they're worried about me because I've been sad. Isn't that terrible of me? Several things run through my head..

1. The only reason to worry about someone who is sad, is if they are always sad, or if you fear they're going to commit suicide. Don't be worried about me.. try to make me smile. Don't tell me I'm acting depressed, tell me you love me. Just sayin'.

2. I'm not always sad. I have a reason for my sadness. I'm going through several extremely stressful situations. They're taking a toll on my emotions and even on my physical health. I've been trying to stay as happy as I can, but I do get sad. Everything does get to me sometimes.

3. Sadness is a perfectly normal human emotion. Worry about me if I start saying that I'd like to sniff your armpits or something. Not because I'm sad.



..On a lighter note.

I have 6 books to read and I'm craving pizza. I'm either going to make some for dinner, or order some.
I'm going visiting teaching on Friday.. I'm nervous.
My best friend is coming to town in a week or two, and I'm SO excited. I need best friend time! And I love her so much.