First Floor, Room 16



"But I said 'Hey, what the hell. Once in my life I'll take a ride on the wild side.'"

Sometimes I get to the point in my life where I feel like I'm losing any direction. I've been going to school for... forever. I'm in my 3rd year technically. Credit-wise, I don't even want to say what year I'm probably in. I'm working on my prerequisites for a career that I don't think I want to do anymore. The job I'm working is not necessarily dead end, but it's definitely not something I want to do for the rest of my life. I'm at the point where I have about 3 real-life friends, and only one of them lives close to me. The other is my boyfriend. The other is his friend.

What is there in my life? I'm just plodding along, happy to be unhappy.

I'd like, more than anything, to experience life a little. As badly as I want to take time off from school, I can't help but wonder if it's a good idea. I keep thinking I want to save up money and take a month or two and just travel. Would it be a fun experience? Undoubtedly. At this point in my life.. should I? Probably not.

Shouldn't I be working on saving my money to move out? Continuing my college career somewhere else, leaving this sleepy town behind.. it's what I've been planning forever. It's moving on with my life. Taking a step towards the happiness I envision for myself.

Once again I'm at the crossroads I come to every now and then. Should I be sensible? Or just do something a little crazy..

What's the worst that happens when you jump? You fall.

7 comments:

OceanDreams said...

Sometimes when you jump you can leap too, just in there love, your hard work is bound to pay off. If you are totally bored maybe it is time to have a change of pace...I know when I get bored with my job I plan fun events for myself for a little pick me up, hope you feel better soon and get out of the rut, we all have been there a time or two.

OceanDreams said...

Oops, meant to say hang in there...hope your weekend goes well!

Kate said...

Set yourself a solid, definable goal to work towards. If you want to go to school elsewhere, find out where and plan out how you're gonna get there, then stick to your plan. Life may not always be controllable, but have set goals helps.

Taren said...

ah, the story of my life. Go to China! that's what I always say ;) I left school twice, and is it annoying that all my friends are done with school and i'm not? yes. if i could go back would i change a thing? never.

Taren said...

p.s. i like the new layout!

Allison said...

I love that picture! And yes- what you said it SO TRUE. Experience life! :D

pinklotus said...

yikes! same here.... Up until now, i still don't know what I love to do in my life... like in my entire life, I'm just following what my family says. They want me to be a doctor, so i said yes! they want me to work, so i said ok! now, they want me to study again and take up law.... gaaaah!!!!! i really really don't know what to do....

I think I need a doctor... hehe..

Life is short so live it up!

PS. I heart the picture.