"But I said 'Hey, what the hell. Once in my life I'll take a ride on the wild side.'"
Sometimes I get to the point in my life where I feel like I'm losing any direction. I've been going to school for... forever. I'm in my 3rd year technically. Credit-wise, I don't even want to say what year I'm probably in. I'm working on my prerequisites for a career that I don't think I want to do anymore. The job I'm working is not necessarily dead end, but it's definitely not something I want to do for the rest of my life. I'm at the point where I have about 3 real-life friends, and only one of them lives close to me. The other is my boyfriend. The other is his friend.
What is there in my life? I'm just plodding along, happy to be unhappy.
I'd like, more than anything, to experience life a little. As badly as I want to take time off from school, I can't help but wonder if it's a good idea. I keep thinking I want to save up money and take a month or two and just travel. Would it be a fun experience? Undoubtedly. At this point in my life.. should I? Probably not.
Shouldn't I be working on saving my money to move out? Continuing my college career somewhere else, leaving this sleepy town behind.. it's what I've been planning forever. It's moving on with my life. Taking a step towards the happiness I envision for myself.
Once again I'm at the crossroads I come to every now and then. Should I be sensible? Or just do something a little crazy..
What's the worst that happens when you jump? You fall.